I was sitting in my daughter's room playing with her and playing the guitar, too after being in lockdown for a month or so. There's nothing in this world that I love more than that little bundle of joy! 🙂 But, I know myself and if I'm tied down by anything I start pushing back. As none of us, living beings in this world have experienced this global lockdown before, during those early days it was all a bit much for me with constantly being home, no outlet and having a toddler around you fulltime and all I wanted to do was feel progress in my new business and music, and while in her room out of the blue I started playing 'Walking Away' on guitar and sang it out loud while sitting on the floor.
During that night's sleep, I had been playing it over and over and over in my dream as I often do with songs and tunes and is often where ideas come from. I woke up at 4 am knowing I couldn't sleep anymore and to just simply surrender to it, get the coffee going and.. thought, LET'S record it! 🙂
As I climbed up the steep stairs that lead to an open attic area that overlooks the living room, on the right is my studio door, and normally I'd feel a bit guilty for going in there meaning whoever is downstairs has to look after our beautiful yet handful lil Sienna 🙂 and knew that everyone was still asleep during this time. So, I felt free and driven to get the system going and quietly record my version of 'Walking Away' and how I heard it in my dream only moments ago. 🙂
The track has pretty much all first takes on it except the guitar. I think I was too excited and nervous and messed up a few times on that one hahaha! Who cared!? It was my morning 🙂
Later that day I remember my wife telling me two days prior that there are a specific amount of levels of frustration and that I seemed to be at a certain level, not being able to let go, she mentioned. She was right. And that must have played a big part in getting to acknowledge the facts and worked them then out after that. It was also remarkable that, straight after listening to what now is this version, one last quick mix, my stress levels were not to be found, I felt relieved and achieved, I had something of which I had complete control over, perhaps. All parts are relevant? I think so.
I also started meditating since then, at least once a day. Reminds me I need to do mine still.
I'm sitting in the kitchen writing this up while looking out on the yard and in a silent home, for once and the first time in months. Daycare opened up today here in Finland and the two months of non-stop noise here came to an end 🙂 Let's hope that the entire world will be a little bit back to normal again, soon.
Wishing you all the best and for those that are artists and frustrated during these times. Create. And don't stop. Or write stuff down. Keep writing, not knowing exactly what about, just go! My good friend and Yoga teacher Jasmine Matis made us challenge ourselves once with this practice and it was amazing what all came out of us. Okay, dinner time.
Much love! Tommyboiiiiiii ! 🙂